It Could Be Me

Life has a way of humbling all of us.

It does not select. What someone might think as ‘could never be me’ can quickly be ‘you’ in a split second. That is why, it is mandatory to learn on how to be appreciative of everything, even the minor ones.

I’m thankful for the air that I breath, for a new day, for my mobility, sane mind, shelter, food, good health, speech and the list goes on and on.

I remember early this year, I had gone in for one of the major surgery out of the three that I’ve ever had. You might think that I ought to have been prepared for it because it was not my first. Frankly, I was daunted. There are some things you’ll just never be prepared for.

I had to create some sort of escapism to just get my mind off it. It did not work. Everything reminded me that I was soon scheduled for surgery. Preparation took the whole day

For someone who could go a whole day without eating, I was feeling weak and shaky that day. You do not eat before surgery. So I stayed put. Hungry and scared. The only motivation I had then while at that was I had a full emotional support team. My family was present.

My best friend was holding me down in prayers and I had an amazing friend at the facility who guaranteed that everything would be well. She overlooked everything and ensured I was comfortable.

Hillary on the other hand, never moved an inch from me. She was present. Slept by me. Waited on me. She literally held my hand throughout. My stay at the hospital was never lonely. She made sure of it. God bless her soul!

Looking back, I never thought there could ever come a point in my life where I’d need help to use the bathroom. Sickness makes you awkwardly vulnerable.

I could not clear my throat leave alone cough! I was assisted in so many things. Most of them, things I never thought I would use some help. I was not only assisted in getting in and out of bed but also in changing positions in bed.

I never even thought I would ever be scheduled for surgery to start with! Can you imagine that?

But then, it happened. Suddenly and unavoidably. It was remarkable. But one thing is for sure, God never left my side. He actually has never.

What I thought I could not take, He led me through it. That experience did something to me.

I was shook for a moment. I took forever to process everything that was. My body had gone through so much at such a short time that its impact showed so loudly. It changed me. Entirely. It for sure did.

I then learnt to appreciate the little things in life. Not that I did not before, this time, it felt intense. It was authentic. My contentment grew in great magnitude.

Seven months post op and I still have not gotten over what happened. Fully.

I have never appreciated my life and all the things I can do like I have in these past seven months. Actually, I still am.

I’m grateful for everything in my being. My gratitude immensely stretches out to everything and everyone around me!

I’ve seen people whose life changed in a blink of an eye. From normal to being disabled. I’ve listened to their stories. I have grieved with them. Nobody chooses this from that, it just happens in the most harshest way and that is life!

It is good to be careful and prayerful.

If it has not happened to you yet, it probably will not but might happen to someone next to you.

When so happens, may you grant them all the grace in the world. May you nurture them with all your might. They will love it. I promise.

Making someone feel seen at their lowest does something great to them. It uplifts their spirit in ways only them can feel and understand. I like to do that. A lot. I do not judge. I meet everyone where they at because I have been through the most and I can attest I know how it feels when you’re in a sudden transition. It is scary.

I wish the very best to everyone including you, the one reading this. May God shield you. May He keep you safe and healthy and as He does that, may you be reminded to give thanks and be kind to everyone.

And to you, who might be going through the hardest shift in your life at the moment, I pray for God to quiet your fears. You are not alone. May my writing fill the gap for you because together, is the best place to be!

I know you got this. You know it too and it shall be well!